Sleeping

I am about to sleep in my bed tonight for the first time since Will and I broke up. I hope it goes well, but who knows? It's hard for me to sleep in my own bed when I've been upset by something. I think I'll put on a movie to facilitate not thinking as I drift off into slumber. To everyone who keeps reading this blog: Thank you. To everyone who keeps listening to me when I need to talk: Thank you. Hanging out with the same people as Will tonight was emotionally draining because all I wanted to do was to hold his hand, and knowing that people are all over the world wanting me to feel better and thinking about me makes me feel great.

Dear Will,

I think you should talk to someone about how you're feeling. You've told me that you internalize your grief, but I think that in this instance, you need to reach out to your friends. I know that tonight you were just sitting in your room waiting for someone to text you, but you have to be proactive. Sitting and waiting is no good. I've tried it and nine times out of ten, it doesn't work. I hope that you enjoyed watching 30 Rock, Jessi says it's funny. I wouldn't know, I've been watching a few episodes of Castle and The Office. It's funny how we're both replacing the time that we would be spending together watching television shows to ease the pain. It's too bad that we can't do it together. I love you still. Good luck on your midterms next week. I hope that you have enough time to finish your project in the dark room. Keep me posted on when we can call each other again, because I'm missing hearing your voice everyday.

Love,
Lauren