I had a terrible night's sleep even though I worked out extra hard and went to bed late so that I could be exhausted. I woke up at 5:40 again. I'm starting to get frustrated with this whole ordeal. There is no one up at 5:40 in the morning, and really nothing for me to do because nothing is open at that time. Plus, this morning I had to work at a local church's nursery at 7 in the morning until noon. I had fun at work, but I could barely keep my eyes open. I wish I could just sleep. Maybe it was the hanging out with the same group of people as Will last night that did the damage. I could tell that being around me made him feel sad, but it was either hang out there or by himself, so he chose to be where I was. He said that he sat in his room for the whole day waiting for someone to call or text. I would have if we were on close terms again. I want him to have friendship in his life. I feel like he's struggling with it because he's afraid to get hurt. I want him to step up and put himself out there and not drown his sorrows in his own mind.
I'm going to miss him when I'm away. I miss him now. I feel like he's purposefully holding back on talking to me, even though he wants to...I wish this could be easier for him. It might start to wear on me soon. I love this boy, you know? Other than that, the only thing bothering me is my french teacher, but that's pretty much a constant in my life. I just have to keep telling myself that after I go abroad, I probably won't have to take another class with her again. So joyous! I'm going to go study for our midterm tomorrow. Wish me luck with the sleeping tonight. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll be prepared and my passport will have come in so that I can get myself a VISA.
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