Truckin'

As far as Will goes, I'm moving on and forward. I'm keepin' on truckin' down the road. I've been on a few more dates with the same guy, and it always surprises me how well he treats me, and how easily we get along. Granted, we've been friends for a year now, so we know each other, but it's different in that kind of setting. Especially when you've always known that other person as just a friend and nothing more. Whatever is going on with him, I like it, and I appreciate it. There's nothing better than having someone you really like make you feel like you're wonderful.

In other news, I had a run-in with Ian last night. I was at a friend's party off-campus. All of a sudden, I saw him come in and look at me and smile. He walks right next to me and looks at me as if there is nothing wrong with what is going on in the situation. My first instinct was to punch him in the face, but I think that I was too shocked to actually make a move. Plus, that would not have been the right thing to do. My friends admitted that they wanted to punch him too, and I'm glad they didn't. Things could have gotten out of control. My next reaction: to go and talk to my friends Desh and Calvin about it and have him removed. (Overall, I think that was a better thing to do over the punching.) Then I started crying because of the emotions that had re-emerged after having seen him. My friends rushed to my aid. Desh took me aside to a place where no one could see me and just held me as I sobbed into his arms. It was so comforting. He was so kind, and he didn't judge me for breaking down like that. He stood there and said that everything was going to be okay and that he and all of the rest of my friends there would make sure that nothing bad would happen to me. Even if that meant that someone had to forcibly remove Ian from the premises. Being shown unconditional love and protection by your friends is one of the greatest joys in the whole world. I really couldn't ask for anyone better.

I'm not excited about studying abroad yet, but I'm not as scared as I was before. I've been going to counseling, and that has helped, I think. She's very encouraging and says that I'm taking big steps and shouldn't be too discouraged that I'm feeling really anxious. I'm trying to take it one day at a time. It's definitely easier that way. Also, I would like to mention that Harry Potter 7's first installment is coming out on Thursday! I'm excited and rarin' to go to that movie. It's like my childhood is slowly coming to a close...