A Date

On Sunday, I had a date. I didn't put that in the last post because I was still in shock about the whole situation. I was kind of taken aback at the fact that someone wanted to make me dinner and hang out with me even though I've been way off balance lately. It was so refreshing, and also, quite hilarious. The guy was really nervous about the whole thing. I was nervous too, but I didn't let it show because I was laughing too hard at him scrambling around and losing his words mid-sentence. Pobrecito. Either way, I had a really nice time, and it helped to make me realize that there are other people out there who can and want to treat me better. I'm not saying that Will didn't treat me well, it's just that he only made big gestures, not small ones. I think the small gestures count more than the large-scale projects.

I'm excited to see where my life takes me right now. I'm extremely busy with schoolwork and life-work, but in the end, it will all be worth it. When you're sad and feel alone, you can't really see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm starting to see it, and good things are starting to happen in my life again. I sacrificed too much to continue being in that relationship with Will because I wanted to be happy. Wanting to be and actually being happy are two entirely separate things; sometimes it's difficult for me to differentiate between the two because I get too caught up in my own emotions or desires. Living is always a work in progress, and I'm definitely still working and improving upon myself because I am definitely not perfect. But, that's okay with me as long as I continue to strive to be a good person.